.... Could Be You ....

could it be be ?!! Am I really opening my heart for you ?! Am I failing ?! .. those questions I Failed to answer .. I was scared I was determined .. what is happening to me ?! are you the fate that I have been running from ?! or your the light at the end of my tunnel ?!! .. you have giving me your heart and soul and made me feel a shamed each time that I talk to you , each time that I meet you , its strange how I feel .. you wanna give me everything yet I got nothing to give.. I didn't like who you are when I first met you .. I didnt expect that I would find home in your arms .. I was struggling that day .. didnt want it to happen I felt sick just thinking about the Idea of me and you alone ... now togetherness is all I'm after , you made me feel again , you made me feel a life ,,, you love my falls , understands me even when i say nothing at all , you have surprised me !!! I didn't know that someone like you would ever exist , I really had a wrong definition of LOVE and you just make me see what right in each day !! Im so surprised that im writing this but I dounno why im doing this but I feel so so so strange feeling I cant even decide which word would fit perfectly in here its just whatever in there that im keeping it inside .. we Talked for hours and today you were feeling down and I cared actually I was upset that your so blue , I wanted to take all your sadness away and wash all your troubles away ... Can I ?!! wanna hold you so close n feel you breath , wanted to lay ur head against my heart and hold you tight ...keep you safe , wanna make you feel like u made me feel that day ..I know sometimes I can be clueless and dont know what should I do to make you feel better but I do now and I cant wait to show you how I care about you ,..Im listening to your song ...

I'm haunted by this photograph

Don't know why

Everytime I look, I get shivers down my spine

You're such a beautiful face

I know those eyes

They take me back in time

I wish that i could tell you

What you don't know

I dream about that day

But it's impossible

In another world,

I'll be yours tonight

But i can't break free from this life

I know I promised you not to think about it but i cant help it , I'm really sorry that your going through this and I'm sorry that I'm helpless but I promise I'll make it up for you .. My sweet Baby ...

......

... Flying Without Wings ...

Falling....

I've been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don't know where to

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life

And now I found ya

I don't know where to

I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you

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2nd of july

wooooooooooohoooo Finally Im GRADUATED , ( tears ) God cant believe it , no more university!!! aaaaa had a rough time last week , was a fried of failing n marking my last days with a big failure but thanx god its turn out to be just great , got lotsa present + i was the Barbie of the party as everyone was calling me that ;) loved every single sec about that day

JLo watch from my sis , n a golden necklace a custom made with my name on it ,

pearl necklace from my friend assj ... love ya

from my dear friend bosh ( L )

this is the souvenir we made for the party we added chocolate n a ribbon of course , had one I'll take a pic once i get out of my laziness looool , Got a gift from my lovely bro also but couldnt find the pix =/ anyway , my day started at 9 i woke up took a bath got my stuff ready n burning some of the songs we like so i can give it to the dj to play later on , went to assj's house at 1 pm a bit early loool stayed there for 15 mins n we wen out to tamimi to get some last min shopping for the party ;) then went to the salon where we did our make up finished at 5 pm then went to the other salon for the hair which looked gorgeous !! loool got to the hall at 7 pm then we arranged everything there , i was there wearing a pajama cause my dress somehow got missing , at 9 finally got it and yeah it was late got dressed up n then went to welcome the guests with a wide open smile looool , the look on my parents eyes n my sisters that day means the worl to me even my Dr's where empraising me with their words made me soooooo happy that i finally can say yes I did it :) im proud and happy to make them proud , had a chance to say my speech and also to thank those who helped me along the way ;) It was great , and inshallah it will be from now on ......... ( two thumbs up for moi looool )

Everybody L!es ......

Ambition ...

... ummmm got me thinking why did I publish this blog when I dont have the time to post or actually write something good ;) .. well I just want it to mark every step of the way cause I feel that I was born again and wanted to make sure that i have a place that I would keep my memories in the good ones of course ;) ... I usually write in my diary but that like from time to time caus eim not the diary kinda girl who writes every detail of her life in it , Nop Im not !!! cause I usually end up burning the stuff I used to have this note book , I had it when I was at High school .. which I burned 3 years a go it didnt do me good but reminding me of things I should forget ... so thats what I do I dont throw things away but burn them cause I kept them for a period of time , I'm sure they meant something to me but not anymore ... Let them n their memories hide n fly with each flame .. it may sound mean but its just my way ;). .... anyway .... as for the marking thing God !!! tooo much things wallah , even though its my last semester n I have some personal stuff going on n I have been so stressed out + broke looool + having such mood swings but somehow its the best ... with every day passes there is something ., everything is moving too fast yet so sweet ...7amdellah .. the uni has been planing so many graduation parties for us and we had 2 which i didnt attend looool I didnt like to go + Im having my own party yaaaaaaaaay the party that I would never wanna miss ;) Dr. samia got me a prize as a thank you for all of my efforts on the uni bored , felt so happy when I got her call inviting me to the gathering n telling me that Im her " STAR" Dr. samia didnt know me for the past 3 years at uni even though , I took 3 classes with her but she did she now have my number + full name + say hi + hugs in the hall its awesome !!!! I'm awesome !!!! looool not really but I always wanted her to notice me and 7amdellah the goal is achieved :) here is the call I got from her looool

so now comes the prize ;) ... here is what she gave me + a certificate

Thank you Dr.samia ;) ....... next would be the invetation cards for my graduation party !!! I got them 2 days agao and they loook fantastic yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaata !!!!

here is one ... and pardon the bad quality its captured by my Iphone

simple but fits the decoration ;) awwwwwww n today I got a call at 6:00 am from Tut telling me that she gave birth to a sweet lil girl , so happy for her a momy for the first time ... I'll be visiting her later this week inshallah , cant wait to see the baby .. love baby borns ;)

.......till then

Betsy !!

;)

been awhile since i actually posted something or even opened my laptop , i had a surgery last week and I wasnt able to , its a " laizk "that only took about 30 min suffered from pain for 3 days and experiencing how would I be If I were blind !! but 7amdellah I'm all better now and I actually had to say goodbye to my glasses it feels GREAT loooool but not the no make up part specially when ur an addict to eye liner loooooool

in few weeks im gonna graduate still not done yet with the party planing , bouought a dress though yaaaaaaaaay ;) its a betsyville dress , it was love from the first sight loool

still wanna buy shoes n pearls to go with that lil dress ;).... wish me luck , and I would welcome any further suggestion about it loooool