~ My First

My ..... First ..... Kiss !!!! My first real Kiss !!! I had it that day and it was perfect =) na , it wasnt ... It was everything I didnt expect .. seen many kisses before and always wondered how it feels to be kissed by someone? .. to have two different lips come together , how does it feel when you giving that person a part of you?..

I cant find the right word or words to describe it , too many emotions in one action !!

you feel the rush within you , you feel the softness of the lips of that someone , you feel warm , hot , Turned on loooooool , and you feel like your gonna explode within any sec cause you got all of those emotions running through you yet you dont know where or when you let them go

Never thought that I would know what to do when you kiss someone but I guess it comes naturally @.@ looooool this is tooooo personal for me to put it here but I just wanna say go and kiss someone you'll be surprised @.@ LOL

Needy

How I hate it when I'm Needy ? how I hate need you ?! and how I hate the fact that I cant do anything about it ? ... I'm so weak and I just dont know what to do ?!! too emotional to even think ?! I just want the sweet , tender you .. I know I have been such an Idiot but what Im going through is really outta my control and I hope you understand that ... I'm waiting for Your call ... I Miss you ... and I hate that Im feeling like what I feel right now , Cause I'm scared .... so Scared to open up ....!!!!!!!!

.... Could Be You ....

could it be be ?!! Am I really opening my heart for you ?! Am I failing ?! .. those questions I Failed to answer .. I was scared I was determined .. what is happening to me ?! are you the fate that I have been running from ?! or your the light at the end of my tunnel ?!! .. you have giving me your heart and soul and made me feel a shamed each time that I talk to you , each time that I meet you , its strange how I feel .. you wanna give me everything yet I got nothing to give.. I didn't like who you are when I first met you .. I didnt expect that I would find home in your arms .. I was struggling that day .. didnt want it to happen I felt sick just thinking about the Idea of me and you alone ... now togetherness is all I'm after , you made me feel again , you made me feel a life ,,, you love my falls , understands me even when i say nothing at all , you have surprised me !!! I didn't know that someone like you would ever exist , I really had a wrong definition of LOVE and you just make me see what right in each day !! Im so surprised that im writing this but I dounno why im doing this but I feel so so so strange feeling I cant even decide which word would fit perfectly in here its just whatever in there that im keeping it inside .. we Talked for hours and today you were feeling down and I cared actually I was upset that your so blue , I wanted to take all your sadness away and wash all your troubles away ... Can I ?!! wanna hold you so close n feel you breath , wanted to lay ur head against my heart and hold you tight ...keep you safe , wanna make you feel like u made me feel that day ..I know sometimes I can be clueless and dont know what should I do to make you feel better but I do now and I cant wait to show you how I care about you ,..Im listening to your song ...

I'm haunted by this photograph

Don't know why

Everytime I look, I get shivers down my spine

You're such a beautiful face

I know those eyes

They take me back in time

I wish that i could tell you

What you don't know

I dream about that day

But it's impossible

In another world,

I'll be yours tonight

But i can't break free from this life

I know I promised you not to think about it but i cant help it , I'm really sorry that your going through this and I'm sorry that I'm helpless but I promise I'll make it up for you .. My sweet Baby ...

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... Flying Without Wings ...

Falling....

I've been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don't know where to

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life

And now I found ya

I don't know where to

I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you

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2nd of july

wooooooooooohoooo Finally Im GRADUATED , ( tears ) God cant believe it , no more university!!! aaaaa had a rough time last week , was a fried of failing n marking my last days with a big failure but thanx god its turn out to be just great , got lotsa present + i was the Barbie of the party as everyone was calling me that ;) loved every single sec about that day

JLo watch from my sis , n a golden necklace a custom made with my name on it ,

pearl necklace from my friend assj ... love ya

from my dear friend bosh ( L )

this is the souvenir we made for the party we added chocolate n a ribbon of course , had one I'll take a pic once i get out of my laziness looool , Got a gift from my lovely bro also but couldnt find the pix =/ anyway , my day started at 9 i woke up took a bath got my stuff ready n burning some of the songs we like so i can give it to the dj to play later on , went to assj's house at 1 pm a bit early loool stayed there for 15 mins n we wen out to tamimi to get some last min shopping for the party ;) then went to the salon where we did our make up finished at 5 pm then went to the other salon for the hair which looked gorgeous !! loool got to the hall at 7 pm then we arranged everything there , i was there wearing a pajama cause my dress somehow got missing , at 9 finally got it and yeah it was late got dressed up n then went to welcome the guests with a wide open smile looool , the look on my parents eyes n my sisters that day means the worl to me even my Dr's where empraising me with their words made me soooooo happy that i finally can say yes I did it :) im proud and happy to make them proud , had a chance to say my speech and also to thank those who helped me along the way ;) It was great , and inshallah it will be from now on ......... ( two thumbs up for moi looool )

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